I used to be laid off for six months and I accepted a job in PNW (Portland, OR) which is 1,000 miles away from dwelling and household, my solely mom after my father handed away from most cancers. It was actually an impulsive job utility and in the midst of an emotional response and excited about it now, I remorse my resolution, as a result of it seems to be a extremely cruddy metropolis throughout and I do not imagine it’s a metropolis meant for me. I do not know if I ought to rescind my acceptance this far in. I am not financially tied, and I can dwell with my mother. But it surely would not make me really feel higher both manner. I am not pleased in both location..
Anyway, I might be turning 35 very quickly and a single lady with no youngsters. I simply need to make a life for myself as I’m very behind in that regard, dwell in a metropolis that makes me really feel enlivened and convey about my finest self, and hope that every part will fall into place and meet somebody. But it surely’s laborious to imagine this when I’ve been feeling so down on a regular basis and caught. I simply need to swap to a job I get pleasure from doing like software program engineering. It seems like I am having a extremely low part with darkish clouds ever looming over me.
Making an attempt to resolve if I ought to apply to another random place I’ve by no means visited. -_-
